9/27/2006 02:14:00 AM
i think i'm stretched... ytd morning as i look at e mirror.. gosh.. my dark rings has grown darker.. oh.. finally i see e diff.. when all my frenz r saying it's getting darker but i didnt realise..

like wat ching eu say.. i muz start to think abt wat i wan to do for next yr.. if not it'll juz b another yr for me.. i dun wan to waste another yr.. wan to get myself back during my long awaited hols in nov n dec.. thou oni 2wks each.. i shld b grateful dat i've a hol after 6mths.. but it feels like 9mths.. due to e kind of planning dat nyp gif me for my apr, may n jun.. :/

dere's still so many things to do.. for my spiritual life, study life, sooon to come = wrking life.. =P

looking at my frenz one after another leaving to go overseas for further studies makes me wonder.. if my plan to go overseas for further studies w felicia will come true? if we cant go tog as planned.. am i gg to survive alone dere? a blur person like me, staying w/o my mum, close frenz, church for a few yrs.. haha.. i think i'll b super insecure.. hopefully dere's a church dere.. shld go n find out.. do some research abt it.. ;)

kind of felt alot when i heard another fren's gg off.. when two of my frenz r coming back.. haha..

really made me wonder.. i plan my life for e next 10 yrs.. is it too long? am i planning too far? well.. aniw.. leave it to god.. shall pray abt it all e way until den.. i think it's time to rewrite my prayer list.. got alot of new things to be praying for.. n oso my dinner fast.. muz start soon.. mayb starting coming mon.. when it's less hectic.. tis few days need e energy.. if not.. scared later faint again.. like e past few times during attachment.. haha i tink during attachment i'm too tired.. dat's why i'll faint.. gosh.. when i start wrking full time how?

thank god for a fren like felicia.. gosh.. wat to do w/o her.. if god didnt send her into my life last yr.. i may haf left e church, left him.. today she told me to be a warrior of prayer.. praying n relying on god.. i'm too prideful.. always will tend to use own's strength..

really hope dat i'll b able to go overseas w her.. living tog.. studying tog.. psychology!!! fulfil our dreams tog..

my 10 yr plan:

• 20-23yrs old = pay back bond; wrking full time
• 23-24yrs old = either help out at hopeww overseas or some volunteery wrk dat i can find; wan to go to my dream cty.. africa!! haha.. weird dream cty..
  (while waitin for felicia to finish paying back her bond too; 1yr behind me :p)
• 24-27yrs old = overseas study w felicia.. one step closer to our dream
• 27-30yrs old = start wrking.. counsellor at hopeww(wan to help those youth-at-risks)/social worker (many places to do so)/ psychologist..

hmm.. wat do i do after 30yrs old? i shall think abt it again.. =)

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