9/29/2006 12:39:00 AM
yeah!!! went shopping today.. finally..

hee.. juz wanted to go n haf a walk.. didnt get to go out of s'pore for hol e other time during my 1wk hols.. so ya..

in a way, i tink, killed two birds w one stone.. spent time w pei ruan n liang zhen came along.. first step to really building friendship w her.. always e oni time we get to talk is during wrk n after wrk.. first step to helping her..

shopped e whole day.. went to far east n guess wat? saw gwen.. haha.. god's wrking definitely.. he's proud of us i guess.. both of us were out today to spend time w e one whom we want to reach out to.. initially we wanted to spend time, but e movie she wanted to watch "john tucker muz die"; i watched alr.. hee.. god's plan.. end up she watched it w e gal she wanted to reach out to.

after dat, we headed to bugis.. went to look at perfume, went to bugis street to look at pei ruan's adidas jacket.. (we tot of getting one for her b'day).. den we went to icon to look for e car set for jun xian's "fat fat" haha.. managed to get everyone to chip in.. now e shop is having offer.. oni $99 instead of e usual $169.. big diff..

dat shop is amazing.. they'r products r all original frm korea.. a korea company bought e copy right of all e disney n cartoon characters to be printed onto e car seats.. so each design oni haf abt 150 sets, distributed among so many ctries.. therefore in s'pore, there's oni 4-5 sets (at most) of each design.. cool ya..

e other time when i saw dat shop, i decided to get it for "fat fat".. haha.. in appreciation to jun xian for always driving us ard, sending us hm after wrk.. no matter how tired he is.. even during our many night outings.. in e wee hrs when everyone's tired, he still keep himself awake, drive each one of us hm safely.. thanks..

after dat had late dinner w pei ruan, liang zhen n yuan qi.. smth happened but we didnt haf to do much counselling.. it's a learning process.. he's strong n he's e one who initiated it.. so ya.. no prob for him to get over it.. juz needed listening ears..

haha.. we talked abt fyp, our sec times.. i joked abt him.. "say bye" after knowing each other better.. me n liang zhen oso advised him to not be impulse in such things.. know e gal properly as in haf a certain level of understanding b/w both parties b4 getting into a relationship.. den he say "later after knowing each other, e gal will say it's better to be frenz.. dun nd to b in a bgr.. juz like u n our fren.."

at first i didnt get wat he was saying.. den after some hints den i get it.. haha.. we talked abt e past.. 'educated' pei ruan on their past.. this bunch of guys.. always haf triangle-relationship one.. like one another's gf or both fall for e same gal.. haha.. so funny...

well.. went hm w liang zhen after sending pei ruan hm.. chat abit.. told him dat i wan to help pei ruan.. which he oso agrees to n encourage me to do so too.. but e oni way to bri pei ruan to church is when liang zhen go.. both of dem had x'tian background in a way or another.. so ya.. i oso say dat aside frm helping pei ruan, i wan to help him, jun xian.. everybody.. haha.. he said dat's gd.. aiya.. shld haf tell him, so u muz allow me to help u if not one hand cant clap = nth can b accomplished.. hee.. nvm.. can tell him on mon..

on mon we'r gg running.. me, lz, pr.. hee.. god, pls bless us w gd weather on dat day.. we'r gg to register for our basic theory for driving too.. we'r gg to take e test tog.. =)

while waiting for yuan qi, somehow we talked abt e bible.. n yea.. my deep teaching came into gd use.. had e knowledge n conviction to share abt e bible.. abt e 3 types of translation e bible has, why KJV is not encouraged to be used..

oh.. i rmb.. coz we were saying wat eng name liang zhen shld haf.. coz his mum intend to change his name coz his mum went to e fortune teller n e fortune teller say dat liang zhen will die an early death, earlier than his younger bro liang wei.. haha.. e fortune teller so "powerful".. dere's no basis to believe wat he say at all.. :p

anyway.. we were choosing den pei ruan suddenly say names in e bible like joshua, david etc.. den i suggested to liang zhen to name himself elijah.. den he asked wat did elijah do etc? i shared w him wat steph shared w me in e past.. elijah lead elisha by eg.. elijah did wat was told w/o questioning.. he believed n had faith in jesus.. so when elijah die, elisha did wat elijah did..

thank god for blessing me in a church where they speak nth but e bible, e truth.. thank god for blessing us, using john powerfully to preach abt e deep teaching.. thank god.. u'r noe best, u've e best time for everyth.. =)

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9/27/2006 10:44:00 AM
i dun like tis me.. why always like dat..

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9/27/2006 02:14:00 AM
i think i'm stretched... ytd morning as i look at e mirror.. gosh.. my dark rings has grown darker.. oh.. finally i see e diff.. when all my frenz r saying it's getting darker but i didnt realise..

like wat ching eu say.. i muz start to think abt wat i wan to do for next yr.. if not it'll juz b another yr for me.. i dun wan to waste another yr.. wan to get myself back during my long awaited hols in nov n dec.. thou oni 2wks each.. i shld b grateful dat i've a hol after 6mths.. but it feels like 9mths.. due to e kind of planning dat nyp gif me for my apr, may n jun.. :/

dere's still so many things to do.. for my spiritual life, study life, sooon to come = wrking life.. =P

looking at my frenz one after another leaving to go overseas for further studies makes me wonder.. if my plan to go overseas for further studies w felicia will come true? if we cant go tog as planned.. am i gg to survive alone dere? a blur person like me, staying w/o my mum, close frenz, church for a few yrs.. haha.. i think i'll b super insecure.. hopefully dere's a church dere.. shld go n find out.. do some research abt it.. ;)

kind of felt alot when i heard another fren's gg off.. when two of my frenz r coming back.. haha..

really made me wonder.. i plan my life for e next 10 yrs.. is it too long? am i planning too far? well.. aniw.. leave it to god.. shall pray abt it all e way until den.. i think it's time to rewrite my prayer list.. got alot of new things to be praying for.. n oso my dinner fast.. muz start soon.. mayb starting coming mon.. when it's less hectic.. tis few days need e energy.. if not.. scared later faint again.. like e past few times during attachment.. haha i tink during attachment i'm too tired.. dat's why i'll faint.. gosh.. when i start wrking full time how?

thank god for a fren like felicia.. gosh.. wat to do w/o her.. if god didnt send her into my life last yr.. i may haf left e church, left him.. today she told me to be a warrior of prayer.. praying n relying on god.. i'm too prideful.. always will tend to use own's strength..

really hope dat i'll b able to go overseas w her.. living tog.. studying tog.. psychology!!! fulfil our dreams tog..

my 10 yr plan:

• 20-23yrs old = pay back bond; wrking full time
• 23-24yrs old = either help out at hopeww overseas or some volunteery wrk dat i can find; wan to go to my dream cty.. africa!! haha.. weird dream cty..
  (while waitin for felicia to finish paying back her bond too; 1yr behind me :p)
• 24-27yrs old = overseas study w felicia.. one step closer to our dream
• 27-30yrs old = start wrking.. counsellor at hopeww(wan to help those youth-at-risks)/social worker (many places to do so)/ psychologist..

hmm.. wat do i do after 30yrs old? i shall think abt it again.. =)

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9/22/2006 01:40:00 PM
i juz dun understand.. why muz things b so complicated.. even in e kingdom? everyone has his point, not totally wrong.. nor totally rite.. why does it sound like oni i'm in e wrong? wat abt him being so discouraging? no one addresses it.. no one tell him off to repent.. feel so unfair..

god.. i juz wan to follow ur standard.. i juz wan to follow u.. not wat others tell me.. wat makes them think dat wat they say is true? how do dey noe? how do i noe?

i juz wan to shine for u.. dun care if others repent.. but god, for u, i'll repent.. i'm not gg to talk to him abt it anymore.. let him be.. it's his sin, many has told him off abt it.. since he still doesn't wan to repent.. it's b/w him n u i think.. i shall not interfere.. i dun tink i'm e rite person to talk to him abt such things too..

i dun care wat others think of me.. if u dun understand why i'm reacting how i'm reacting.. den nvm.. i juz haf to repent in e area dat i was wrong n be accountable to god..

i'll juz leave it as it is.. juz take my mind off it maybe for juz awhile.. dun wan to think abt it..

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9/18/2006 01:22:00 AM
again.. i cried b4 i slp.. why am i so emotional?

god sure noes wat we need n gif it to us at e best time.

had an unexpected chat juz few mins ago.. was trying out some changes to e blog when jacinda suddenly chat w me.. my impression of her is a 17yr old cheerful gal.. heard that we'r similar in character.. think alot, feel alot.. but express lil oni.. always juz keep things to ourselves in e heart..

it's so comforting n encouraging..

all dat she said was:
"but hang in there. he will give you strength."
"2corinthians 12:10b"
"For when I am weak, then I am strong"
"no problem, i will be praying for you."
"yes, i can. and you can too!"
"we will fight this battle for god. and win! dont let satan put us down."
*of coz there were conversations in b/w too*

gosh.. when i read dat my tears juz rolled down..

i realised.. all i needed after a whole day of traumas is juz someone who says "i'll b w u" "fight on tog".. dat's all i need..

someone who really feel how i feel.. someone who assures me dat she's w me fighting tog n keeping one another in prayer.. dat's all i need..

thank god for sending her to comfort me, to assure me, to encourage me.. w/o u, i'll not haf ppl who encourages me when i'm down, assure me when i'm insecure, comfort me when i'm hurt..

it's oni in ur kingdom, w e standards u set for us; spur one another on daily (hebrews 10:24-25)

*my fighting spirit dat i've lost for quite some time is back!*
*oh god, pls b w me. bless me w ur wisdom n strength.*

i luv u

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9/13/2006 05:34:00 PM
saw my mum crying while on e phone juz now.. gosh.. felt dat i'm so incapable.. not able to help at all..

for e past few yrs, she has been bringing bread hm, has been settling e bills.. yea i do help out but not all n i still keep some for myself.. juz feel dat she's been tiring herself so much for so many many yrs.. helping e family to clear e loans etc.. but my dad isnt doing anyth.. as if she's obliged to do so.. juz becoz she's his wife? gosh.. dat's bad..

suddenly feel like she has grown old so much.. so tired in her whole life, but wat has she got? nth but paying bills every mth.. gd husband? = no, gd life? = no, gd children? = no..

worse still whenever she talk to me, asking me things juz to wan to start conversation w me.. i talked in a v unpleasant way.. like v impatient tone.. dat's so bad..

juz wan to let her noe dat i still luv her even thou my rudeness whenever we talk.. so sorry..

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9/12/2006 03:34:00 PM
was feeling very very heavy hearted.. but really god showed himself as soon as i haf doubts in him..

wanted come n blog when i saw ying jiun on msn.. gosh.. wat a relief i met her here.. vomitted all my feelings out.. cried all my feelings, frustration, disappointment..

juz haf to accept that this is life, if i'm able to see n understand god's plan then he's not god animore.. but definitely like in jeremiah 29:11 [ "For i noe i 've plans for u", declares e lord, "plans to prosper u n not to harm u, plans to gif u hope n a future. ]

i still believe dat god luvs me. wear e ring everyday to remind myself dat. not to lose focus on god.

like wat ying jiun say, we'r pilgrimage on earth. sometimes really cant figure out why things happen this way but to juz accept it n that life really happens tis way. i will understand it by n by as i move on e journey.

all i need to do is to cling on to god n i'll understand it by n by. maybe not now but definitely one day in future, i'll see n understand why things happen tis way now.. never shld i let go of god's hand, if i let go, i'll never ever understand it.

suddenly tot of tis verse: isaiah 49:16 "See, i've engraved you on the palms of my hand; ur walls are ever before me." it juz shows how much god loves me.

ying jiun oso shared lamentations 3 w me.. emphasized more on v 21-36.

e writer of lamentations has a godly mindset n postitive attitude towards god's love for himself. e writer understands e meaning of hitting rock bottom, but he still hold on a grip on god by saying god's loyal love couldn't haf run out, his merciful love couldn't haf run dry.

trials n challenges in life are all meant for us to cling on close to god no matter wat.

patiently wait when times are tough, waiting takes faith and trust for God to act at the right time.

amen.

thank god for letting me meet ying jiun online if not i'll fall deep into self pity..

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9/12/2006 12:57:00 PM
ytd was such a long day..

in e morning i woke up at 8am, went to meet felicia, brought her to kala kala to look for jun xian.. stayed w her till abt 12.30pm, jx drove me to redhill to pick rui han, den to temasek poly for rui han to drop smth den to my sch..

gosh.. jx say my teacher waste his petrol.. haha.. my 2 hrs lab lesson was cut to oni 1hr.. so i went to meet dem at northpoint.. they drove me back to imm.. after dat they went to jx's hse..

haha.. after closing, lz promised to go out w jx on sun nite.. but he was ill.. so last nite e 3 of us went out.. we went to play pool followed by lan.. oh.. dun understand why sooooooooooo many ppl like to play those games.. i dun see e purpose in playing.. i tried playing.. played battlefield, dota n maple..

*to zara.. i dun understand wat's so nice abt maple?! so routine, boring.. no fun*

but battlefield, i still need time to really get use to it i guess.. they didnt really explain to me.. once e com's on, they started playing.. gd thing lz was ard.
he at least bothered to explain a lil to me.. n i was in e same team as him to fight against jx..

oh.. dota is smth i totally couldnt understand.. either i'm tired that's y i' pissed off.. or i juz dun understand.. it seems more diff to understand n play than battlefield..

*to marilyn, i dun understand wat's so nice abt dota too. haha..*

yea.. reach hm at 4am.. again.. not completing my ppt slides.. juz now muz wake up at 10am to do it.. initially planned to do it at 7am.. den go for lecture that's at 12pm.. haha.. not still hm... didn't plan to go le..

i think i seriously need to tink thru.. v ill discipline n no boundary.. esp when it comes to close frenz or ppl who ask me for favour etc.. muz go n find verses n reflect upon n repent..

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9/10/2006 06:19:00 AM
these few days haf been kinda free.. after sch's wrk den hm.. kinda routine.. somehow felt smth's missing..

fri supposed to haf d-grp but i couldnt make it as i oni noe last min.. kinda irresponsible to juz bomb my fren like dat.. oh steph left for her business trip on fri mid nite too.. copehagan n paris.. she had bad experience at paris.. got robbed dere on e day she arrived last time.. muz pray for her to b safe n sound n healthy.. she's gg to b away for 1 mth!!!

today woke up v early in e morning.. went to observe e footdrill compeitition.. my cadets got worse.. gosh.. heard dat training oni started last wk.. but dat's not an excuse.. it's more foundation built during their weekly trainings.. obbviously they didnt pay full attention n effort to learn during their weekly footdrill sessions..

surprisingly, aung heth got e best commander for e mixed team category.. guess it'll b an encouragement n motivation 4 dem to wrk harder during trainings..

after dat celebrated sir koh's b'day.. haha.. he got conned.. couldn't blow off e 'magic' candles.. he gave all of us a treat to pizza hut.. oh my.. i was so full.. hee.. but i finally got my craving dat has been for a wk.. PIZZA HUT.. haha.. yum yum..

he drove us back after everyth.. i took an hr to b hm.. we went to clementi to drop zara den teck whye to drop nic.. as i stayed nearest to sir koh, i'm e last to alight too.. it's oni e 3rd time he's driving eversince he got his license n it's like 2 yrs ago.. haha.. gd dat at least he's std is maintained.. still can drive.. juz abit slow..

gosh.. it's 530am.. i juz got hm.. went for movie w jx, lz, pr, fy, wm, xy n jj.. haha.. we laughed non stop as usual.. but i think i'm tired.. was rushing proj earlier on w shu hui's help.. thanks alot gal.. w/o u i wont finish it so fast.. ;)
initially wanted to catch e 12.10am show.. end up, we took e 2.05am show.. e earlier on one has no more seats.. so tired.. i fell aslp quite a few times towards e end of e show..

while waiting for e show, we went to haf dinner cum supper.. at yoshinoya.. was feeling abit hungry.. ate oni e pizza hut meal at 1+2pm.. haha.. bro msg me when we juz bought e tix.. haha.. he got hm at 1am too.. so late.. sounds burdened.. but didnt wan to share.. juz gotta include him in my prayer list lo.. try my best to help..

i brought my dog down to poo today too.. feel so weird.. suddenly didnt haf much to do.. as in i've time exactly juz for doing proj.. if not almost everyday i'll b rushing, juggling proj w wrk etc.. anyway, since my bro's not hm too.. so juz bri her down lo.. anyway it's time for her to downstairs n poo poo..

she's juz so adorable.. b4 we went down, she havent finish her dinner.. so i told her "bambi, if u wan to go down muz quickly finish up ur dinner first".. e very next moment we found dem finished up everyth dat's dere for dem..

*haha.. as i'm typing now, i'm falling aslp at e same time*

i'm v afraid dat later on i cant wake up.. gotta wake up at 7am.. meeting marilyn for breakfast den we'll travel down to church tog den meet gwen to pray tog b4 gg 4 svc.. gosh.. how am i gg to survive? aha.. tml after church gg east coast park too.. having our afternoon devo tml.. after dat rushing down to imm to wrk.. wat a long day again..

so initially i planned not to slp.. but now i tink i cant tahan alr.. ytd slept at abt 1+2am.. finished closing at 12am.. started e closing at 10.45pm.. oni left me n jx.. haha.. n i learnt how to show him my true colours le.. i kept quiet for abt 30-60mins).. totally ignnore him..

*eyes r closing le*

*poom.. mayb take a wink first.. 1 1/2 hr.. shld b can ba.. hopefuly i can wake up.. gosh..*

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9/07/2006 02:54:00 PM
after e continuous b'day celebration, i started thinking.. why tis yr's so different? i've nv had a b'day dat's like tis.. like wat steph n fang jin say? - ppl's person? really went all out to serve dem built friendships dat's real = real to one another.. really giving my heart out.. that's y dey r doing so to app, to show dat they cherish e friendship? gosh.. v thick skin.. haha.. but even frenz frm sec sch whom i seldom keep contact w, dey oso msg me.. frenz who r overseas studying, even send a b'day card to me.. when i dun rmb her b'day.. so bad of me.. wat a fren..

ytd was a reflection day 4 me..

spent time w ching eu (someone who really noes wat i'm thinking even when i'm not).. had dinner w her, chat 4 awhile b4 gg 4 mid wk..

during e chat, she asked me "so how r u? how 've u been feeling?"

i was speechless.. didnt noe wat to share.. den she say "has it been a long time since ppl ask u tis? no wonder u cant share.."

yea.. in fact, i've been so outwardly focus for e lost, i neglected myself.. i didnt noe how i was feeling.. i juz noe dat i'm tired.. i need a break.. enuf of sch.. proj.. fyp.. family.. she showed me verses dat she wrote in her diary (hey.. she oso got diary..), pics she drew to express herself..

one thing dat i'm convicted is e pic she drew.. watever things in her life, she put god in e center link.. meaning she--god--wrk
she--god--study
she--god--ministry

i feel dat dat's wat's missing.. i didnt put god as e center link.. i was juz remembering his existance but not really building my relationship w him.. i've not been serious w my quiet time.. not putting it first in my everyday agenda when it shld w no EXCUSE..

my everyday is packed w so many other things but not time w god..

everyday is packed w study(sch), wrk, proj, spending time w x'tians, spending time w frenz, church activites if dat day has..

my relationship w god isnt growing.. how can my wish to haf a fruit within e next yr esp in e coming champaign mth b fulfilled? it'll not come true even thou i put it first in my bday wish.. :-(

ytd's mid wk was a double booster.. first was on discipleship.. how 've i been a disciple.. how effective, wat it means to b a disciple.. wat it takes to be a disciple.. next was alvin's lesson 4 e champaign mth.. he showed verses, each bibletalk presented their invitation cards..

questions he encouraged us to think abt:
- wat is e character u wan to see urself change
- wat is ur goal in e champaign mth
- wat do u wan to achieve

at first i tot, hmm.. goal to 've ongoing studies.. when i think of wat i wan to see myself change, i couldnt think of any.. which is impossible.. how can i not haf.. after putting pride aside, being honest to myself n god.. i realise i've got many things to see myself change in..

wan to see myself change in:
- learning to love e lost; love dem wholeheartedly frm e bottom of my heart.. even if dey were to reject me.. ultimately dey'r rejecting god..
- learning to be more discipline; be consistent in my quiet time.. deepen my convictions.. not lazy; when dere's qns frm frenz or myself, take e extra effort to find out n not juz ask ard.. not putting enuf effort.. setting my priorities right..


juz had my psycho lecture juz now.. topic was on aggression.. realised dat hey, i'm not as perfect as i tink.. not as gd as i think.. too self-righteous.. thou a 100% for sure thing is i'll not b violent.. but whenever i'm angry,

i do:
- supress my feeling
- try to calm myself down outwardly but inwardly it's 'burning'
- i even haf passive aggression; i get back at ppl indirectly.. = tryin to irritate ppl
*gosh..*
- i've delay gratification too.. cant wait.. want smth esp urgent.. means wan it now..
- silent treatment = watever ppl ask me i'll say "dunno, dun want" n nth else..
eg: "r u angry? - dunno"
"wan to talk? - dun want" etc..

i'm v hostile too.. esp to family members.. my mum, sis.. to dem, many a times i'll say "come n eat"
after many times of calling, still dun come..
"dun wan to eat dun eat lo.. ask so many times alr.. u choose not to eat.. den now u say u'r hungry"
= dunno how to show dat i love dem

i meant well, but i keep having e mindset dat we'r so close w one another, u shld noe how to take care of urself.. so "big" alr.. dere's many other things i need to focus on too..

come to think of it.. wat r e other things i need to focus on? proj.. gosh.. how can dat b my top priority..

thereotically i noe top priority shld be god followed by family

but in action, i'm not showing it..
no wonder.. thks to steph 4 her reminder e other time.. "haf u been a gd elijah for elisha to follow?"

i've not been one.. dat's y my sis is not inspired to come to church.. in fact she see me gg to church as a burden.. wei ting doesn't haf a gd disciple, gd eg to follow.. gosh.. gotta repent.. b4 wei ting gets e feeling of "kena conned" n leaves church too..

*sigh*






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9/06/2006 04:31:00 PM
*continuation of b'day celebration*

sUnDaY
oh... woke up late.. rushed to church w e cake made for ching eu n siew hoon.. guessed i slept too late n was exhausted.. hee..

after svc, as usual, e whole grp had lunch tog at e mezzanine level.. den e surprise came.. steph n wei ting bought a small cake frm breadtalk 4 me too.. everyone started laughing.. *looking at e difference b/w my cake n ching eu's cake* *siew hoon went hm w ernest n lil pamela*
steph den explained e diff in size of e cake is becoz e one 4 ching eu is baked by me.. :D

*yea.. i noe smth dat's not cheesecake.. choc cake w yogurt n pineapple topping.. sounds weird? wait till u taste it.. it blends in JUZ NICE!! *

as e tradition, dere was a rd of sharing..
at first i was juz overwhelmed, shocked.. totally didnt expect.. was juz thinking.. "ok.. gotta learn to b giving n it's ok dat i dun celebrate my b'day aniwae i feel happier celebrating 4 others.."

e last person who shared: ching eu.. she made me burst into tears..
*arrrgh.. so embarrassing; crying in front of e whole grp.. so many of dem*
i think it's becoz we were sooooo closed.. thou she's so much older than me *20yrs*.. but she can really relate to me, knowing how i exactly feel when sometimes i myself dun noe..

she shared abt last yr how i stayed strong when pei yi n jasmine left.. i struggled so much for 1/2 a yr.. crying each time they'r mentioned.. how i struggle e transition period frm teens to northwest singles right after my baptism.. i had so much bitterness in my heart.. god was nv in e pic at all.. even when i seem to haf tot straight.. wanting to help pei yi n jasmine get back w god.. wat a naughty gal.. she oso shared abt wat she told me abt her vision for me like esther in e bible.. she still believe one day i'll make it..

even qiu ling.. shared dat she hope to wrk hard w me n b in e leadership one day.. which i nv tot of.. being a leader spiritually is tough.. i cant imagine myself being a leader one day.. haha.. juz wrk on e present..

after dat when i share abt ching eu, i cried again n tis time rd, she cried too.. haha..

after all e sharing, had a small lesson frm her on how to do seeking god's study w ppl.. was kinda sleepy.. tink either i ate too full earlier on or cried too hard.. *use too much energy* haha..

den my sun usual.. RUSHING TO WRK..
reached e wrk place, all in a mess.. so many customers..

at nite, jx, lz n pr planned a surprise dat's so sweet..

kept saying wan to send me hm.. dey'r tired, next day they'r leaving s'pore.. end up.. drove to geylang n ate my FAV: DOU JIANG YOU TIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! = soy bean drink w hmm.. you tiao lo.. :p

*yummy yum yum*

again, dey lied..
kept saying wan to go hm..

we ended up at mt faber.. me n jx went to take a stroll while pr talk tp lz *she claims to haf things to tell lz*

went back to e car, *boo* a cake w candles lited!!

so sweet hor? haha

after e whole celebration's over, i realised i nv take pic juz now.. so we took out e cake n take pic again.. w e remaining 1/2 a cake facing e cam.. haha.. so much fun..


ohh.. at e strike of 12am....

my beloved cadets called w zara to my phone.. we had conference.. n e plan was.........

to sing me a b'day song.. oh...

*overwhelme w everyone's love liao..* *floating* haha

mOnDaY
after sch, spent time w FELICIA.. how can i leave her out in my b'day celebration record? ;)

we went to ps, shopped for xavier's b'day gift..
bought him a book titled "wild at heart; discovering e secrets of a man's soul"
he's entering ns tis fri, so tot of getting him a book dat will help pull him thru at least e 1st mth of his ns life..

we ate lotsa food too.. felicia kept feeding me..

w/o breakfast n lunch, dat was my first meal at 5pm.. we shared 1 yoshinoya set den we went to get auntie annie's pretzel n den we shared ice cream dat's oso 94% fat free!!!
*thou not venizia*

after dat we went to bishan, felicia needs to collect smth..

haha.. oni do stupid things w a few ppl.. one of dem is felicia..

frm bishan, we went back to city hall.. i was hoping i can get e puma jacket.. but... even e DISPLAY is GONE..
sadly.. we headed towards e mrt stationn..

passed by e shop dat i saw another jacket dat was new.. *saw it earlier at ps*

hmm.. after thinking for awhile.. yes! i bought it!

went hm, continue my day.. went hm n burnt mid nite oil to finish up my newsletter.. gosh.. i conquered e com finally.. haha.. actually juz copying n pasting into a newletter format..

rushed n den went to bed at 2+ near 3am.. :p

hmm.. ya.. basically dat's how my last 2 day's of celebration went.. WOW!! 5days of b'day celebration.. i've nv had b4..

*will blog more again.. been feeling alot these few days.. both +ve n -ve.. haha.. *







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9/03/2006 02:13:00 AM
yeah yeah..

since thur, i've been celebrating my b'day.. haha.. dunno y tis yr my b'day seems to drag so long n create commotion in a way.. haha

tHuRsdAy
i went to spend time w ying jiun at little india.. she gave me a lunch treat.. it's my first time eating traditional indian food.. haha.. e dhaal was nice.. yum yum.. e serving for rice is as thou it's free.. haha
*drank alot of water thou.. it's spicy ma.. :P*

fRdAy
i spent time w my beloved aunt jean.. she's e one who looked after me since young.. prayed for me for 9 YEARS.. she perservered.. god answered her prayer.. for me to become a christian one day.. :p
she cooked baked macaroni w tuna n cheese for my lunch.. we baked chocolate cake tog for ching eu n siew hoon..
oh.. I FINALLY NOE HOW TO BAKE SMTHELSE ASIDE FROM CHEESECAKE.. haha..

at nite, i went to watch movie w ge-5 n their gf.. gosh.. e movie was frm 11.10pm to abt 1+am.. den had supper at jurong west, had teochew porridge.. after dat chat n chat..
end up everyone got hm at 4am..

but fook yuen n i went to imm w jx to bri e stock for sat.. so we (me jx n lz) dun need to rush on sat morning to imm den to woodlands checkpoint to meet fang jing n company..

THE END: i reached hm at 5am.. woke up at 8am.. :-/

sAtURdAy
yeah.. today went to JB for go-kart session w fang jing, n some other bros n sis frm church.. brought jun xian n liang zhen along.. yeah.. dey enjoyed it..

after dat i went hm to take my lecture notes (2 somemore).. so heavy.. for bro.. he needs it.. gonna study psycho next yr but noe nuts abt it.. haha..
but w e interest, he can do it one.. :)

rushed to sentosa to meet zara, lina, cheng yi, mei yee, gracia, kenneth, n lina's bro.. played volleyball, rested den Han Chong came.. end up, he taught me, zara n lina how to play volleyball.. we had gd time playing.. den e rest joined, somehow like cant interact..

end up, we played captain's ball.. everyone got involved.. 3 on 3 + 1 "human goal post" (THAT'S ME..) haha.. went to wash up after dat den rushed to meet bro..



gOsHHHHHHHH...

it took us 30mins to queue n get onboard e bus to get to e main entrance of sentosa.. initally we decided to meet bro 8.30pm at dhoby gaut..
7.30pm - shower, get changed
8.10pm - started e queue for e bus
8.40pm - got onboard *finally* phew..
abt 9pm - started walking out of sentosa
9.30pm - reached harbour front mrt station
9.50pm- reached dhoby gaut *finally* *pant* *pant*
(both me n zara) [ kept apologising n giving e so sorry smile to bro ]

started dinner at oni 10pm.. gosh.. my 1st proper meal of e day.. so hungry.. e rushing burned up my roti prata kosong frm JB.. haha..

+ i didnt slp on fri nite.. 2-3 hrs.. haha.. cant believe i did it! haha.. i'm still as "strong" as b4.. ;)


back at hm.. wanted to finish up my newsletter (start frm scratch).. coz zara's laptop crash again.. after it recovered few days back.. so she cant send wat she did so far to me..
oso tml nite after wrk, dere's another rd of celebration w jx, lz n ms ruan..
so i plan to finish it tonite..

end up: chatting w bro.. haha.. it's 2.15am le.. more than 24hrs i'm awake.. gonna slp.. tml nite come hm den do ba..

*no time left* *no choice* *tml nite after celebration den do le..* :p






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