bro juz look so diff in e army uniform n in civilian's clothing.. but hey hey, u'r a civilian le.. ;)

ever been a walking model for a day? haha i did.. thou i'm abit bigger size than her..

after walking e whole day looking, searching for jackets (get e best we can find).. e 3 of us went to e "park" at marina square n we ate my fav ice cream - 95% fat free ; VENEZIA.. haha.. kena suan, dey say thou it's 95% fat free, we'll still become fat juz at a slower rate.. :p
each one of us chose a flavour, bro = dark choc, zara = cookies 'n' cream, me = lemon.. haha.. e dark choc was rich but seems not as rich as gelare's choc overload (bro's fav)..

aniwae, we ended up chatting after e ice cream.. got stuck to e chair, so comfortable sitting in e "park" n talking.. as usual, zara n i went crazy, high.. laugh n laugh non stop.. haha.. we were saying bro next time wont go out w us alr; scared of e 2 of us.. first time go out tog n we'r so "crazy" haha..

after dat rushed to hq, zara took her bike dat she bought frm national camp.. den i rushed to tampinesss to meet steph n wei ting to go 4 our N.W's mini retreat.. haha.. recently i'm so tired.. i kept dozing off.. after dinner, we went to a pub n drank a lil n celebrated han chong n michael's b'day.. hee.. as usual.. lil gal oni noe how to drink hooch.. haha.. alcoholic but cant taste it, oni can taste e sweetness of blackcurrant.. haha.. so funny, steph n fang jing still ask if i'm of age.. haha.. yea.. dat's being e lil gal in N.W.. youngest lo.. :p

went back to e chalet n watch movie.. to watch e show "eight below", i tahan until 2+am n finish oni at 4am.. b4 dat dey were showing "joseph's (frm e bible) life in cartoon form.. basically it's gen 37 onwards.. after i finish watching "eight below", i knocked off even thou i was slping on e floor n it was SUPER SUPER SUPER COLD... haha.. slept all e way to 10.30am.. fang jing, jerry n deon went for e run; i couldnt wake up.. so sad.. missed e opportunity to run e route dat jerry explored.. he claime e route as "jerry's trail".. haha.. heard frm deon, dere's a V V big empty space, nice scenery by e beach.. :(

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steph bought breakfast for me.. on n off many ppl woke me up, but my eyes juz couldn't open..
it took me abt 2 1/2 hrs to finish my "brunch".. got interrrupted.. while i'm eating half way, jerry says dat do QT better than watching tv, when we can watch tv at hm.. since all r here, do QT tog better which is 100% true.. so did QT den had prayer in small grp.. den steph left.. e rest of us continued singing, having our mini im-promptu afternoon devo.. we nearly sang e whole song book.. taught zach n wei ting my kids' kingdom songs.. haha.. coz dey didn't grow up in e church nor as w a x'tian background.. so i taught dem e songs n actions how kids will express e song.. haha.. so much fun, juz like gg back to my childhood days.. hee..

left e chalet at 3pm w han chong n wei ting.. den i realised dat i'm wrking at 4pm, not 5pm.. so overwhelmed.. i was wearing neither white top nor shoes.. gosh...
called jx, ask him how.. end up i couldn't get my mum to get shirt for me to change too.. she was rushing off to wrk by e time she called me.. end up, i went to jx's place in slippers n blue top.. gd ting i didnt go hm after sch on thur, so i've my jeans.. haha..

finished wrk feeling v v tired.. saw zara's missed call.. called her back.. *boom* she gave me a surprise.. dose 3 cadets of ours r actually still in contact w ppl we didnt expect dem to be in contact w.. aniwae zara surprised me not w e confirmation of gathering tis wkend, but for e v fact dat mel n han chong n roy r joining us.. gosh.. actually feel like it's been a long long time we'r talking, recalling abt NDP n i tink it's definitely gonna b V V gd memory in our lives, but i tink we shld move on either to build friendship b/w each other or juz forget abt dem n juz continue to lead life normally..

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once again, i struggled to wake up in e morning.. i tink i really haf slp disorder.. when it's time to wake up, i slp.. when it's time to slp, (like now.. hee..) i'm awake.. gosh.. got no choice but to take cab down to church.. hai..

immediately after svc, i was doing my hope world wide flag day stuff.. felicia came to pop by n b4 i say anyth i juz hugged her n breakdown.. gosh... totally couldn't control myself.. i was in e straitshall w so many ppl ard me.. ppl like shaun suddenly came to say 'hi' too n he saw e crying.. den he asked who bullyed me? i still can joke saying 'u la..' haha.. nah.. i tink i'm over over over stretched recently.. probably e past few months.. eversince i start yr 3.. stress n worried over my present n future.. keep tinking thou i'm v tired, feeling so stretched; but i should juz tahan n enjoy wat i can coz next yr i would b able to b leading a life i'm leading now.. = free n easy.. go out as n when i wan, do watever i wan anytime n anyday..
when i start wrk next yr, i'll b having a shift wrk lifestyle.. oni time i've to b out w ppl is on days when i'm on morning or off.. i cant b out when i'm on afternoon shift, no one can meet me n of coz when i'm on nite, when it's time 4 dinner or drink or entertainment i gotta go. rush to wrk.. *sigh*.. worried that i'll haf difficulty meeting up w x'tians; spending time w my frenz in church n outside church like sj frenz, sec sch frenz.. oso discipling time.. worried dat i'll not haf enuf faith n convictions dat's strong n deep enuf to pull me thru e 3 yrs..

suddenly i realised, i'm worrying.. that's a sin.. gosh.. dat shouldn't be e way.. i should juz leave it to god to plan my future.. he has e best plan for my future..

romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose".

*repent, repent*