8/29/2006 05:15:00 AM
gosh.. e long awaited tioman trip is cancelled.. dun wan to blame anyone.. it's no one's fault.. juz god's plan i tink.. today morning my phone's flooded w sms.. all on tis wk's schedule n changes.. so confusing n kinda irritating to a certain extend.. *take a deep breath* thou i'm not able to go tioman, i'm still packed n it's my holidays... tml, gg to get my new phone followed by rest (i tink i'll b spending time charging my phone n exploring it.. 1st time using sony ecricssion) den spending time w steph at 6.30pm, followed by evangelism at 8pm den 9pm wei ting's follow-up study.. d-grp after dat.. man.. isn't my night packed? haha.. tis is my every wk's tue's schedule.. w/o fail.. :Pwed;
i'll be most prob finding time to study 4 e quiz 4 e deep-teaching series n do my proj.. haven done anyth since fri.. den at nite gg mid wk.. hmm.. ok la, still relax.. hee..
thur;
i'll be having bible talk at julie's hse at nite..
fri;
there's meeting at ching eu's hse, she's gonna teach how to do 'seeking god' study w ppl.. 2.30pm-4.30pm.. den i'll b meeting zara.. she's gonna help me w my fyp.. com idiot, dunno how to do newsletter.. stupid.. (maybe celebrating ching eu's b'day too)
sat; [e day]
hai.. another packed day..
2pm dere's jennifer's restoration study at julie's place till (hopefully) 4pm, latest 4.30pm.. rush to meet zara n company.. she planned a gathering 4 e ndp marshallers, us n e 3 cadets.. hai.. promised to haf dinner w her no matter wat!!
[dun wan to be a person who say but nv do.. yes i'll rush down no matter how late or how tired i'm.. no worries]- i feel dat recently i'm so distracted by things outside.. even steph says so.. frankly speaking, i'm so tempted to not go 4 jennifer's study coz 1) e gathering was planned first, 2) dun wanna miss e rare chance of everyone spending time tog.. everyone's life is so diff.. hard to get a time where everyone can make it.. lookin at how sam=bro put god first in daily life (guess he recently learnt n got it back :p), motivates me to REMEMBER how impt it is n how naturally it shld be coming frm me.. to put god first.. those reasons dat i tot of r all EXCUSES!! i gotta learn to put my priorities right again.. i tink it all goes down to how close is my relationship w god recently? how serious n impt am i taking tis relationship? is my walk w him gd n close? is he in e pic always? how often do i tink of him? gosh.. ans to all e above qns r.. BAD, LIGHTLT, NO, NO, RARELY..
this is SO SO SO SO SO SO bad for my spiritual life..
samantha see.. muz repent! tml morning after i get my new phone, once hm, QT first than any others..!!!!!! god, pls bless me w e strength to do it.. 1st step is always diff.. help me.. i dun wan to drift away frm u juz like dat.. after wrking so hard e past 1yr..
also, pls i pray 4 u to help me w my patience towards my family.. my mum esp.. been talking nastily to her, not showing her respect, short tempered towards her.. i dunno how to love her like i use to again.. god, i noe it's my pride, self pity n self righteousness dat's playing e angel n demon war..
i haf e mindset that i'm always right, e most pitiful at hm.. when she's no better off than me.. thou i've been helping out at hm eversince my first job after e Os, sacrificing (not alot la..) on n off for my sis, bro n mum, that doesnt gif me e right to do so god..
god i juz wan to pray to u.. pray dat u'll help me god.. i dunno how but pls juz help me god.. hope dat my QT w u tml rather later on will be great n my spending time w felicia on mon (hee.. my BIRTHDAY!! hahahahaha..) will b great god.. thou i missed gg to e beach w zara n e rest on sat, god thank you for blessing me w felicia who's always dere 4 me to lean on, rely on n find comfort n support frm god.. she's always speaking e truth in love n she's juz such a joy to me.. thou she's on 18 but she has e maturity n i feel she's juz so awesome.. always speaking e truth using ur words to remind me to do wat i'm suppose to do as a christian..
god, i juz wan to shine 4 u..
everywhere.. sch, frenz, home..
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